Return of the .... Rohan

Here I am avid readers; back again to fool myself into thinking I'm writing to someone...

I've just had such little faith these few days past. So someone lets themselves down by having false thoughts of me; I feel I've let them down for letting those thoughts arise, and we both feel thoroughly terrible for a few days. Then , just when I think it's all getting better; I see something which tells me A) I should never have been concerned for this person in the first place, and B) I hate myself for trusting this person; it diminishes me..

But here I am, and there are some things I have thought up in the mean time. I discovered during a particularly slow shift at work that "New Years Resolution," which was much the cause of the above mentioned incident, is a perfect anagram of "Your new lose in tears".

Another thought I had was of whether we're really ever meant to learn or change. Everyone says we are, it's a key thing in life for many cultures. I recall learning in indigenous cultures, they would let children play around the fire and learn that touching it hurts, rather than prevent it in the first place. This seems smart and is logical; we learn where we go wrong.... But do we always?

I was just thinking, if everything we ever do in life is a learning experience, surely there would be many people close on perfect? If we always learned, we wouldn't really be questioning so much. If we always learned... no one would ever get more than one speeding ticket in their life. No one would lose something twice, no one would forget the same thing. If we never made the same mistake twice, ie. learned from everything; we'd be ultimate surely?

As an extension of this, if a certain attitude cost us; would we not learn from it? Individuality in cherished at the same time learning is, but you can''t have both. Surely some would learn taht their way of life brings about loss to them, say, a careless attitude makes them fall off something; or smoking makes them unwell.... But we don't learn; and this lack of knowledge defines us. This lack of knowledge is actually praised in this world, and all of a sudden it becomes "cool" to live life a certain way and.... I guess my point is, where did we go wrong? It's like we found the boundaries to things; and then we pushed them. It seems all very well if they were created by human minds, but we didn't create them, and we didn't create natural instinct.

Were human beings wild animals, we'd be extinct. If one day we all just had to survive off our own wits, I very much doubt many of us would still be around and kicking. We create all these unnatural things based on nothing but the thoughts of one person, and all of a sudden we all change and do things that are.... well, really, counterproductive to life...

It's all a very strange cycle, to get the best partner they can, people starve themselves and do appalling things to their bodies. It seems in some way to link down to the whole, best partner --> best offspring thing, which in essence is a key factor to evolution and existence..... but the method to the maddness seems to have fallen out. I personally don't see how the health of the offspring could be benefited remotely from the starvation of their parents; and I just wonder how much it is going to take till people realise...

I wish people could just form their own opinions on things. We fancy what we see on TV because we are told to. It must be, I can't see any other reason. I mean, it surely doesn't take an expert to tell that skin and bone is not healthy. This being said, it's everywhere.

This here links to a song I'm going to write; I doubt it will make much difference, but if it touches just one person, I'm happy. Just gotta say that some guys.. not all, but some, actually don't like the whole fake person thing that's going on. And for those that do, who really cares if they're "popular"; their lives are controlled by media, not them.

It just doesn't seem right; I hate it really... People are being controlled by people.... without control. I mean, it's all good and well to follow Gandhi or his divine grace A.C. Bhaktivedante Swami Prabhupada, but they had knowledge, wisdom, and power as a result. Not merely good looks and some claim to fame. I just wish the world were a truly better place; but with modern day media being what it is; it's just so hard for people to really tell who the good people are. Everything good is just losing all it's power; I swear, when we hit 70; if we hit 70, we'll look back and think "Ohh snap... what have we done?!"

People, if you're out there, talk to me.. What do you think, what are your opinions; is it too little too late? Is it completely wrong that we are where we are? Is it completely wrong the idols some people have these days... Is it completely wrong that there's just two different types of people, and they will one day prove to be two groups in society with a large gap in earnings between...

Or is this the end? Now that the world is changing and we have to act on our own wits; yet all of a sudden it's not as important as looks; is this just the end... And as a further extent, if it is, and that's the cause.... Does it really matter?