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Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Hi

So much has been happening really, it's kinda ridiculous. I'll say here what I want to and can, though I'm sure I'll forget to mention numerous things.

Well, most recently, Christmas has been recently, and among other things, I've been reunited with somewhat of a long lost friend. It's crazy, we've not spoken in so long, and now we're finally speaking again, it's like I've found a younger me again :-)

It's pretty cool in a way, I'm way more inspired in music now, I'm way happier and more optimistic even, but yeah, thinking about... Everything; all that's happened in the in between times and feeling a little mystified really...

My plan at the moment is baby steps I guess. If I don't move too fast, remain completely honest and just face things as they happen, I reckon I should be pretty safe. To be honest this is kinda dominating my mind; lots else has happened, I've got some great stuff to read to keep me occupied, great music equipment and all: lots to do, I just.... My mind's on fast-forward over this...

So what else, ummm.. Booked a holiday with a mate in January, should be fun; I've taken up a few more sports, I've got a new xbox360, and I'm turning 20 in 4 weeks.... Eeeeeeekk!!! 20 years old... That's like... Old... I mean, sure, it's in the 20 - 25 glory years, but... No longer a little kid...

Anyway, I should be off, my back's hurting; and though it felt like I had lots to say... I'm done..

Friday, February 11, 2011

Return of the .... Rohan

Here I am avid readers; back again to fool myself into thinking I'm writing to someone...

I've just had such little faith these few days past. So someone lets themselves down by having false thoughts of me; I feel I've let them down for letting those thoughts arise, and we both feel thoroughly terrible for a few days. Then , just when I think it's all getting better; I see something which tells me A) I should never have been concerned for this person in the first place, and B) I hate myself for trusting this person; it diminishes me..

But here I am, and there are some things I have thought up in the mean time. I discovered during a particularly slow shift at work that "New Years Resolution," which was much the cause of the above mentioned incident, is a perfect anagram of "Your new lose in tears".

Another thought I had was of whether we're really ever meant to learn or change. Everyone says we are, it's a key thing in life for many cultures. I recall learning in indigenous cultures, they would let children play around the fire and learn that touching it hurts, rather than prevent it in the first place. This seems smart and is logical; we learn where we go wrong.... But do we always?

I was just thinking, if everything we ever do in life is a learning experience, surely there would be many people close on perfect? If we always learned, we wouldn't really be questioning so much. If we always learned... no one would ever get more than one speeding ticket in their life. No one would lose something twice, no one would forget the same thing. If we never made the same mistake twice, ie. learned from everything; we'd be ultimate surely?

As an extension of this, if a certain attitude cost us; would we not learn from it? Individuality in cherished at the same time learning is, but you can''t have both. Surely some would learn taht their way of life brings about loss to them, say, a careless attitude makes them fall off something; or smoking makes them unwell.... But we don't learn; and this lack of knowledge defines us. This lack of knowledge is actually praised in this world, and all of a sudden it becomes "cool" to live life a certain way and.... I guess my point is, where did we go wrong? It's like we found the boundaries to things; and then we pushed them. It seems all very well if they were created by human minds, but we didn't create them, and we didn't create natural instinct.

Were human beings wild animals, we'd be extinct. If one day we all just had to survive off our own wits, I very much doubt many of us would still be around and kicking. We create all these unnatural things based on nothing but the thoughts of one person, and all of a sudden we all change and do things that are.... well, really, counterproductive to life...

It's all a very strange cycle, to get the best partner they can, people starve themselves and do appalling things to their bodies. It seems in some way to link down to the whole, best partner --> best offspring thing, which in essence is a key factor to evolution and existence..... but the method to the maddness seems to have fallen out. I personally don't see how the health of the offspring could be benefited remotely from the starvation of their parents; and I just wonder how much it is going to take till people realise...

I wish people could just form their own opinions on things. We fancy what we see on TV because we are told to. It must be, I can't see any other reason. I mean, it surely doesn't take an expert to tell that skin and bone is not healthy. This being said, it's everywhere.

This here links to a song I'm going to write; I doubt it will make much difference, but if it touches just one person, I'm happy. Just gotta say that some guys.. not all, but some, actually don't like the whole fake person thing that's going on. And for those that do, who really cares if they're "popular"; their lives are controlled by media, not them.

It just doesn't seem right; I hate it really... People are being controlled by people.... without control. I mean, it's all good and well to follow Gandhi or his divine grace A.C. Bhaktivedante Swami Prabhupada, but they had knowledge, wisdom, and power as a result. Not merely good looks and some claim to fame. I just wish the world were a truly better place; but with modern day media being what it is; it's just so hard for people to really tell who the good people are. Everything good is just losing all it's power; I swear, when we hit 70; if we hit 70, we'll look back and think "Ohh snap... what have we done?!"

People, if you're out there, talk to me.. What do you think, what are your opinions; is it too little too late? Is it completely wrong that we are where we are? Is it completely wrong the idols some people have these days... Is it completely wrong that there's just two different types of people, and they will one day prove to be two groups in society with a large gap in earnings between...

Or is this the end? Now that the world is changing and we have to act on our own wits; yet all of a sudden it's not as important as looks; is this just the end... And as a further extent, if it is, and that's the cause.... Does it really matter?

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Hello all!

So yeah, new ideas... or idea..

I was talking with a mate and one thought in particular just blew me away in a sense. My friend commented on the likeness between music and looking into the eyes of a lover. The impact it can have, the emotional shift, the trust in it lasting, the joy of it.... A great idea..

As the cynic I am, I naturally had to comment that music will last forever while "love"doesn't always.. but in the moment... I mean, this moment might as well be infinity, as its the furthest we are and all we can ever impact on. So in that sense, when staring in the eyes, it is lasting forever, so the feeling is true.

But yeah... just imagining that feeling of staring into a lover's eyes makes by heart swoon. Sure, whatever, I'm a big softie, it's not my fault ;-p .

I guess though, this will be the emotion I'm working on and going for when I write that song. I don't know what I'm actually going to use for inspiration other than the feeling, but it's worth a try... I just hope I do it justice; it won't be John Lennon, but it won't be a mind-numbingly ordinary single line repeated over and over to exactly the same music to make it easier for intoxicated people to dance to and remember the lyrics.

Another song I want to make a start one will have a subject along the lines of "I trust everyone, just not the devil inside them." Before you ask, the Italian Job, and yeah; things have happened that just sort of made me think of it again, but at a deeper level I guess..

I guess the idea is, everyone has a devil inside them; nobody is perfect. And in a way, everyone is trustworthy, everyone has a good part in them too that is honest, and it's the side they decide to show that matters. This isn't to say one can be all good, the yin-yang principle applies (all good has some bad and vice versa), but yeah, you always need to be cautious of the devil in people. You always need to be conscious that it's there, even if you can't see it, it's there. Of course, some think they like people as they're usually good, but I just don't think it's appreciated enough in this world that in accepting a person, you accept everything, the full yin-yang thing, not just one side.

It just got me thinking when... well, I just had a really uneasy feeling, and I could not place it at all... It just.. something wasn't right. more than that, something was really wrong.. I just didn't know it immediately, but one of those internal triggers just went off, and yeah... I guess I've figured out what it was....

(For any new readers, yeah, I'm crazy, I think too deeply, but hey, that's me.)

So that was my realization I guess. Not that nobody's perfect or of anything else like that; but it was of the devil in someone. It was just one of those things that just struck me, "Hang on... but if that's true, then this also must be.... wow.. snap.."

This isn't to say that I was entirely comforted by figuring it out, and it is still a hunch... But I think it's just a realization of the devil inside people. Of what it is; not just their bad aspects, but their attitude; what it really means to be who they are. I mean.... Someone's perfect; great attitude, comfortable everywhere, able to do so much... What did they go through to get where they are? Sure, their way of life is great now, but what did they do to get there?

I'm sure some people will think "The past is behind, only the future matters" but I beg to differ. What if someone has stolen money and possessions, lots of each. You may consider it unlike to get away with it all, or perhaps an extreme example, but bear with me. You go to this person's house, it's huge, lovely place, a lot of money's gone into it; they're rich due to all their fraudulent activities and such; they have great possessions and seem like an awesome person. But this is all crap. Now you may say that we're better than to judge on what one owns, but are we? If I see someone driving a beautiful BMW or Merc down the road, clearly worth a lot of money, I insinuate not only that they are rich, but that they got that money through good hard genuine work, and I think it's fair to say we all do. You meet the perfect person with this perfect house and perfect possessions, I think it's safe to say you picture them working very hard and genuinely deserving the life they're living.... but it's not always the case.. People get mingle with other people, and I dunno, get into relationships, just considering where things are going to go with luck; but seldom paying attention to where things have been. I don't mean to imply that all rich people are thieves, I 'm just saying not to judge things on face value, ever if you can help it; try to find out the full story so far, rather than just writing from the scene you enter... I think I'm going into a story withing a story and I apologize for that... And that paragraph looks way too long so I do apologize to anyone who actually has some comprehension of where to put breaks... I just do it when it feels right.

Here for example.

But moving on; I... look at my music inspirations... Dear me.. Trusting someone with your life, loving them with just as much... looking into their eyes and feeling your heart swoon for them... And there being a devil inside them.. I suppose the hope is that when you find someone that's really right, who you can really accept in their entirety in somewhat of a loving sense; that your heart acts in this manner and it does last.... but then I have always been naive; maybe it does, maybe it doesn't..

But that's not what this is about, this is about music; and anything is possible in music so long as it's true in the heart of the musician playing/writing it. No, Bird didn't say that.... Well, he might have, but I wasn't copying him, I genuinely thought and meant it there.... Mmmm.. food for thought.. This is why I'm writing this blog see; I mean, I'm fairly confident very, very few have read any of this so far; I'm even doubtful if any will (if you are though thank you, and good-for-you). I like it as it makes me think, it lets me write down what I think on paper/the computer; then I can actually draw conclusions a little easier without the intrusion of other thoughts. As you might imagine, it is much easier doing this, than sitting down and thinking it all in my head without being distracted or losing track of where I'm going.

Mmmm... I'm glad I've written this. I feel I've definitely taken something from writing it and I hope any readers feel the same; or that they have at least gained a perspective.

Oh well, I think I've said all I can; thank you to any readers.



Take care.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

New Songs!

Good evening ladies and gentlemen.

I'd just like to inform you first, as my avid followers, that I have completed the lyrics for three of the songs I was hoping to write! I'm sure that all of you will be thrilled with this information; my hit counter had me as having zero hits since my last post! Haha! But that can't be right.... *clears throat*


Yeah, so basically, I've begun stage two for "Aren't We Cute For Two Ugly People", "Real Eyes Realise Real Lies" and "Falling Dreams". That is to say I'm writing the melody for them. I'm making no promises, but the singing might not be quite so terrible for these ones; and with any luck the keyboard and guitar will just be wild. I have big plans for trading solos and huge crescendos, maybe even in collective improv; it's going to be wild.

So yeah, that's about it ladies and gents, and if you have any ideas or anything you'd like to hear a song about, by all means leave a comment and I'll promise you a personal reply, maybe even an article here... Lucky you ;-)


Stay tuned

Friday, February 4, 2011

Number 1

"So," I hear you ask. "Why 'real eyes realise real lies' and why 'Women, Chocolate and Music'?

Yes, I do understand that the URL link is in fact a song by... some band.. instrumental from as far as I can tell via google. I'll be honest with you when I found that out, I died a little inside. Such a brilliant, brilliant title and idea..... ruined, by not letting words accompany the melody. Sure, studies have shown that music can speak, but words can really convey meaning, meaning that isn't left up to faith or opinion; meaning that doesn't vary regarding one's taste in music.

Anyway, this left me thinking I could write a song of the same title, only better; which as far as I can tell is perfectly fine, I mean, I see other songs with the same title all the time; there are only so many words in the english language, and only so many things to sing about. I couldn't let this idea go to waste.

So why is it the URL and not just a link on this page? Well, it links in with one of my foundation beliefs, one I know many friends of mine share, how to judge a person. We discussed this issue before any of us had heard of this song, and we agreed that a person's eyes can be a good judge of character. That is, they are one of many, there are others, such as the volume of one's music, the style of music, a person's make up etc. (Just as a side-note here, if you can think of any other ways a person's character can be judged, please do write them down below (and do spare us of reading comments saying it is incorrect to judge people, we all do it. If one does not judge one, one way or another, one would have no friends nor enemies nor lovers nor companions; we all do it)).


Moving on, Women, Chocolate and Music. Well, in my oppinion, and again, I have shared it with others, these are the three things in life that bring pleasure. Now there are others, certain activities can bring certain thrills, such as sport or gaming, but I find that these three are most prominent, as often others are in pursuit of one of these. Now, I do understand it is quite bias in saying "Women" as of course it does depend one's preference and I don't mean to discriminate. This blog is merely of my thoughts so it seemed appropriate to make the title a reflection of me.

As an added note here, I don't mean to imply that these three are equal in impact or quality; but they all have their power. I find in life, Women is often the goal of the actions of men; whether to attract, impress or draw near to. It is the goal of many actions, including thinsg like exercise and sport. I'm not implying it is the only goal of such things, but it is a goal that... covers a rather large range of activities, in an umbrella-like fashion.

Chocolate... Well, chocolate... It's great isn't it? Well, this does link in with a new years resolution of mine, to eat a little chocolate every day. This is to just help improve happiness, as not only does it taste great, but chemicals in it release endorphins in the body making one feel love. Not true love of course, but that initial attraction, and I think we all know how powerful that feeling can be. Again, best in small quantities, I'm not telling you to eat a block of chocolate a day, or not even once a week. I personally have just a few M & M's each day (the ones with peanuts in them) with my coffee. I guess it's in the hope that it improves my mood and life, and hey, one month in, it's a resolution I could stick to.

And music... the one sensual pleasure without a vice. I mean, one can have too much of women, too much chocolate; but music is always good. Not an excessive amount of activity is done in pursuit of music, but action can happen as a result of inspiration from the music... or it can just bring happiness. Happiness is important in this world, and at the end of the day, it is almost definately the all encompasing umbrella; all of this, Women, chocolate and music, is all in the pursuit of happiness.

Even me writing here, pursuit of happiness, trying to get my mind out, get music out and get myself out of here and start playing and writing more music. If you're reading this much, it must be in pursuit of your own happiness, or your own knowledge perhaps, which my bet is, if you trace it far enough, links to happiness. But now I'm just restating myself, everything is done in pursuit of happiness; happiness perhaps sometimes, from doing what is "right" or "good". What is right and what is good. Well, I'm guessing I'm going to go into that in a bit of depth in here, discussing the issue with regard to what I know. Ohh, and as a random thought, I might just include a list of literature I have read and philosophers I have studied. Yes, it will be truthful, I shall admit how much of it I have gotten through, it isn't easy when I have ten books in my book case that I want to read. I'll add that this isn't the limits of my knowledge, and I did infact study philosophy in my senior years of High School.


So yeah, there you have it. The reason that we're here, the reason to everything, and... yeah.. and all this in the reason of music. Again, this has a reason...


Life is too short to listen to bad music..


Thankyou,

Be well.